We all have issues...

As long as I can remember my body has been pretty much the same. I worked out consistently and ate fairly healthy most of the time. There were times in my life when I trained more or less, but no matter what I always trained. When I was competing my body was at its leanest and when I worked as a Behavioral Coach in California I was at my thinnest. When I look back at pictures of my body from those times I see the body I have always known. Muscular, lean, and what society deems ideal.

Sometimes I wish I still looked like that. In past 2 years, I have gained weight and went up about 2 sizes. While I still love my body and train consistently, it doesn’t look like it did most of my life. I’m softer, have more body fat andDSC00444_copy while muscular, not nearly as lean as I once was.

My body is still in great shape, just a bit different than it once was. Most days my body doesn’t bother me. I could care less what size I wear or how much I weigh. And even though size and weight don’t cross my mind, the look and feel of my body at times bother me. I’m not use to this body yet, the current version. I spent most of my adult life with a super athletic body and I got comfortable in that skin. So the new softer Coach Jess is gonna take some getting use to.

The irony of this whole thing is my life is better now than it’s ever been and my body is stronger too. I have financial stability I never thought I’d have, I have a healthy amazing relationship (which I really never dreamed was possible), the business is doing great, and life is just f*cking good.

I think my current body is a result of more balance in my life. When I was in super amazing shape and a lean mean training machine, my life was well…f*cked up lol. I was struggling financially to build myself back up, my relationships were for shit, I was overtraining, I was overly consumed with work and felt stressed all the time, but hey my body looked great.

Like I said, most of the time my body doesn’t even cross my mind, it’s simply a vehicle to perform what I am put on this planet to do. I treat it with care and do my best to stay healthy, but it’s look, shape, size doesn’t really get much attention from my daily thoughts. Yet every once in a while those sneaky little body image issues come up. There are moments I want to be lean again. I want the body I had when I was competing or training a ton. Then I remember I don’t want the life I had when I had that body. I want the life I have now and with that comes this body. As long as I take care of my health and am strong, the shape of my body really doesn’t matter.

We all have those days where we don’t find ourselves attractive, wish our bodies were different, or feel badly about how we look. It’s normal! We aren’t always gonna like ourselves, our looks or other people lol! We are gonna have “good” days and “bad” days when it comes to our feelings about ourselves. But when we have one of those days where we don’t like how we look, we must remember there is more to us and more to life than our appearance. We must remember all the great things we have and do. We must remember being healthy inside and out is more important than being physically perfect.

So I got over my body image issues mini breakdown moment pretty quickly. I realize 150% that my body is not my worth. I know that my current body is awesome. It can do cool shit, is strong as hell, and gives me the opportunity to help others. I know that what I have in my life now is what I want and far more important than looking like the version of me that was fighting for the life I have now.

Jessica Storch, MA is a boxing coach, personal trainer, health coach and owner of Knockout Women's Boxing Club in Westmont, IL. Her mission is to empower women to be their best through the sport of boxing. She promotes a health focused mentality and encourages women to let go of the diet mentality. Jessica believes weight loss doesn't equal health and works with women to support them in building healthy lifestyles and happy lives.